Depression....worry...hectic life...I feel...no I am over whelmed!!

 

My job...I am as of now still at the same job, my boss decided she wasn't making any budget cuts and the council went along with it...great...except now everyone in county government is upset because our office is one of the few that didn't make cuts.  All county employees (except the three in my office) are having a meeting Monday to try and make the council cut us.

Why do I stay...?  I don't know...I think it is the principle of it all...my job is very important to county government...if my job was cut the county would not generate tax dollars...I really really like the girls I work with.  It is just really hard getting the cold shoulder, to have people stop talking when you walk into a room.  I think they will feel bad about their behavior when this all blows over.

 

My health is great...not 100% but I can live with how things are now.  I am a little depressed...but I think a good week on the beach in Clearwater can cure it...hope to see ya there Dar.

 

I have been very busy with my mother...she recently retired and my sister and I had one huge surprise retirement party for her...we got her good.  She thought we were taking her to a surprise birthday party for a cousin.  When we walked in everyone yelled surprise...we had to tell her they were yelling surprise to her.

Her eye sight is deteriorating rapidly, I think this may have a lot to do with my own depression.  She has worked very very hard her whole life...physical factory work...and now when she should be enjoying life her eye sight is going fast.  I keep telling myself God has a plan...it is all happening for a reason...I just need to start believing it.

 

Cliff...His car is great...!  I think he and Elyssa may be cooling it for a while.  He is OK with it...I just hate seeing the hurt in his eyes.  I promise I will finish his story soon...just a couple more updates and you all will know his whole journey...our journey.

 

We have a new addition to our family.  Miss Madelyn..Maddy.  She entered our family on Feb. 18.  I almost divorce my husband over her...Maddy is a dog...a westie...she makes two.  She has a story...a long heart breaking story. The husband lied about how he aquired her.  He said he found her...this dirty...matted...skinny...sick...lame...little westie.  I wanted to call the police so they could find her owner.  This is where we just about divorced...I knew he was lying.  He wouldn't let me call the police. 

The truth...this kid, actually an adult, seen the husband walking our westie..Winston.  Told the husband he was leaving town and needed to find a good home for his dog...and wondered if we were interested.  Of course the husband says yes.  The kid just drops the dog off at a friends house and then gets the hell out of dodge.  When John saw the dog he knew he had to take her to get her out of these peoples lives.  I am very glad he did...I was just very upset that my husband thought he had to lie to me about the whole situation.  ...when I layed my eyes on her...I was so mad.  This dog needed medical attention...  I was mad that someone could do this to a dog...she couldn't even walk.  After taking her to the vet...I was even more upset.  Her hip was dislocated...her leg was broken...a break that happened a long time ago and was so bad it damaged the nerves in her leg and the jagged edges of the bone had grown into her muscle...it bring tears to my eyes just thinking about the pain she must have been in for a very, very long time.  The vet had to amputate the leg, all the way to the hip.  She walks just fine...she is a bit slow and still very thin but seems to be getting heathier everyday.  It has taken her awhile to take upto us...but we are making progress.  She crawled into my lap last night and she is letting us pick her up.  Any tips you may have...Laura...would be greatly appreciated.  The vet is thinking she is about five...and in good health other than her weight and her leg.

 

Well I am anxious to get back into blogging...I do hope this finds everyone well...Lisa and Marissa you have been in my prayers.